a million tears.

2007-01-02T18:10:00.000+08:00

its been 2 days since 2006 ended. its really scary looking at how time really flies! so.. i went for countdown at marina south with the people whom i love! :D siying, huahui, anna, jol, leeting, ryan, wenshan, kelvin, and ls. we had steamboat before that! we took PICS! but i only posted one. anyway, everything was so so so so fun! fireworks were beauuuuuutiful! we were screaming and hugging one another, ushering for 2007! :)

ah, one more day before school reopens. and i'll cease blogging very soon! i really dont know how to describe how im feeling right now. i've got so many things i wanna say, but my mind is congested with so many thoughts right now. argggg! forget it. :)

it feels weird typing '07. well, 2007 is gonna be a blast. i'm going to put everything that has happened in 2006 behind and move on. i'm believing for greater breakthroughs and miracles and im gonna step out! :D :D :D i know God is gonna guide my paths and show me the way. :) 2007 will definitely be good!

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. -Heb11:1

2006-12-30T15:22:00.000+08:00

OSCARS D&D

faith! she is God-sent! :)

crazy miss soh and me!

again! :D

eng (the singer) and me. (:

NICOLE AND ME!

BEN and me! my listening partner! :)

kahleong and me.

peishan and me! :D

JOL and me! :D

JUDITH and me! our 6years of friendship! :D

HUAHUI the sweetie pie! she bent down for me. LOL. :)

OUTING ON 27th!

ME. SIYING. :D :D

ryan and me!

I LOVE THE CAP! the joy of the Lord is my strength. :)

ah, first things first. thursday! went to gradma's house in the morning! took the bus down to jol's house in the aftn and met sy, eng, ryan and jol! talked alot, dressed up, listened to their singing, and had pizza there! :) met the members at bb afterwards and headed down! OSCARS D&D WAS A BLAST! i really enjoyed the thanksgiving cg. the 3 leaders really made everything so pretty and wonderful! everyone looked stunning! :D posted a few pics up. there are still ALOT of pics taken that night not posted. HAHA. really glad to have got the faith award! :D :D :D the company was great. and i really appreciate everyone that was there that have helped me to grow in God, really. :)

hmmm. went to meet sarah up to complete our hmk at causeway yesterday. came back, changed and headed down to ps. caught the curse of the golden flower with kl. yep, and i got LOST in douby ghaut control station. it was huge huge huge huge huge! ARG! haha! well, the show was... nice (because there was jay!) WAHAA!

well, guess i'll just blog a brief summary of 2006 as i guess i wont have time for tmr. hmm. this year has been a super rocky year for me. going on forth to a new class, having new classmates and teachers, doing more subjects, huge piles of workload, it has been so tiring. God was there, always. :) then somehow, i was out of tracks. i met my rainbow and my life started to waver. things started to change. it seemed to be getting better, but when my rainbow left, i was.... riding my own rollercoaster. i caused it, and i had to suffer the consequences myself. for many months, i was left speechless, thinking about the events that have taken place. i took many months to get over the fact that my rainbow had disappeared. (well, rainbows are beautiful, but short-lived.) then i began to realise how foolish i had been. love is said to be kind and patient, its a commitment. and guess, its not my time. :) i ran back to God, into His love and it consumed my soul. :) things started to turn for the better. missed Emerge this year and went to Germany with the history people during the June hols. fun fun fun fun! :D despite everything, i was trying so badly to forget my rainbow. i never believed that time will heal all wounds, but now i do. i walked the LONG road and i wasted too much time. nevertheless, God has always been there for me, together with the power of the Holy Spirit in my life. of course, miracles and extraordinary events took place too. like being able to go for christmas events, going out with my church pals out to have fun, all these small happenings really made me so joyful in my heart. i had made so many new friends this year, both in school and in church. in short, God has been so good to me in 2006. :)

ah, just watched finish svc for today. and it was..... GREAT! pst kong never fails to inspire me. strength is the ability to bounce back when you are knocked down. everything today was a big revelation to me. its amazing! :D

it has been a super long post. anyhow, although its 1day early, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! i believe 2007 will be a year of even more breakthroughs and miracles, moving onto a new and higher level, and experiencing God's presence and power in my life like never before. BY FAITH, I BELIEVE. :D :D :D

praise the Lord!

2006-12-28T09:09:00.000+08:00

AHH! its super early now! like what, 9.10am?! HAHA! dragged myself to school to get my bks just now. and I FINALLY DID IT. been wanting to go and buy my bks for a LONG LONG time already! :D

well. went to town with sy, jol, jx, judith, and hh yesterday! went to far east! they shopped for their dresses, and i got my heels! AHH! HAHA! so happy :) hahaha as usual, the whole lot of laughters and all. saw constance and sotong there as well! :D had pasta for lunch and all. ryan came afterwards. jol, sy, me, and ryan went to catch The Holiday at lido. AHH! brillant show! although its 2.5hours long, its super nice! :D AHH! i like jol's blue adidas cap! HAHA! :D im in love with caps now! hahaha. ah, i saw ben yeo at fareast, and BRYAN (the star idol) at tangs! HAHA! but i still prefer YUL! HAHAHA! nevertheless, i really enjoyed myself yesterday. :D :D

its been a COLD MORNING! i've got more to say, but i gues i'll just leave it as it is. everything will be alright. :D tonight is gonna be SO FUN! :D

one word: disappointments.

2006-12-26T17:05:00.000+08:00

it has finally stopped raining! WHOOOPEDO! but there is still no sight of a rainbow. awww. ):

went to my cousins' house yesterday for christmas lunch! mmm mmm! i love my grandma, ALL my cousins and relatives and of course, my family. seeing everyone growing up so quickly warms my heart. i still remember admiring my cousins when they were once infants, and now they have grown so much! how time flies. i love my auntssss and uncles as well! AHHH! and my aunt was teasing me about my "boyfriend" to all of my cousins. it was so embarrassing!!! HAHA! and i guess the world is REALLY small! my aunt's sister was once my cousin's husband SEC4 TEACHER. wow, that IS definitely quite shocking. hahaha! anyhow, i really love the reunion! :D :D :D really enjoyed christmas this year. truly christmas is a time to get together to experience the birth of Jesus! :D :D cant wait for the new years' gathering with them again! :)

went to town with my mum yesterday! and i bought a black dress! ahh! :D :D God has been so wonderful! im able to go for the Oscars D&D on thurs! YAYYYYY! scream for joy people! i mean, not only did my mum allow me to go, she even paid for my dress! yes praise the Lord!! :D :D :D now, im so exciteddd for thurs! plus, i cant wait to see anna ho in a dress!!! :D hahaha now i need to find myself a pair of black heels! :D :D :D SHOPPING!!!

cant believe its already the 26th of december. time has really FLEW so much this year. going through 2006 felt as if i was on a rollercoaster. so much have taken place. "even the most painful moments become the most beautiful memories now." AHH! 2006 has made me realise so much. will blog abt it when the year ends. :D

got that phrase from GOONG! rewatching it once again. the ballerina really depicts my past. and now, im looking at her with a different pair of eyes unlike last time. hmmmm. i like goong! because i can see YUL! HAHAHA! that guy is DROP DEAD GORGEOUS! GOSH! xD haha! plus, goong, to me, is deeeep. i like! :D HAHA.

right, im out of words now. its raining again. AWWW.

she's the man!

2006-12-24T17:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday was SUPERB.

by the grace of God, i was able to attend svc 2 yesterday. it was so so so so so so good. i felt God's peace, presence and power once again in my life. i got to see SO MANY beloveds!!! :D PICTURES!!! :) my soul really felt so free. that kind of happiness i cant express in words. had so much fun with hh and jx with the others at the carnival. i finally rode metorite (spelling)!!!! i didnt dare to do it last yr. HAHAHA! plus hh and i went to play the kids' jumping thingy. and, bumper cars!! :D :D :D drama was so gooood as well. its getting better and better year by year. (: pst kong never fails to preach a good word. and candlelight was absolutely stunning. there is power in the blood of Jesus. :)

i miss w198 so much.
i miss stepping into expo hall 8.
i miss queueing up for svc with the members.
i miss jx's lameness and pulling of faces.
i miss anna's gong-ness and craziness.
i miss hh's actions and "fights" with anna.
i miss judith's teasing of height and feeding me of cookies. =p
i miss mj's funny expressions.
i miss ls' cold jokes.
i miss nicole's humour and funny faces.
i miss siying's screaming and her million-expression face. =p
i miss eunice's sotong-ness.
i miss service.
i miss church.

AHHHH!! anyw thank you anna for yr words. i really needed them. :) thank you hh for the lollipop!! :D :D and thank you siying for your cookies, really love your message as well. im gonna pin it up! :D *BLOWS KISSES TO ALL!*

christmas isnt christmas without God. im just so glad. cant wait for christmas lunch with all my cousins tomorrow! :D plus there may be a steamboat dinner with my vb juniors. :D :D :D whooopeeedo! christmas 2006 is gonna be so fun! :D

have a blessed christmas everyone! :)

2006-12-22T22:52:00.001+08:00

im blogging for the second time of the day! multi-tasking now. :D :D

just a short summary of the chalet. well, chalet had been fun!!! time flies so quickly! AHH! ALOT ALOT ALOT of laughters and embarrassing acts. and jh kept making me laugh non-stop at his actions. AHHH HILARIOUS! and i fell due to the wet floor because of the rain. and IT WAS SO SUPER EMBARRASSING. well, okay. at first, i wanted to trick alvin to fall, so i shocked him. and how would i know he would REALLY fall and fly like superman. and when he flew, he kind of knocked me so i LOST MY BALANCE and fall like supergirl too. AHHHHH I WANTED TO DIG A HOLE TO HIDE MY FACE. it was so so so so so embarrassing cos so many people saw it! AHHHH!!!!! hahahaha. but, i wasnt the only one who fell due to the puddles and all. HAHAHAHA. had sleep deprivation too. played heart attack and some funny funny games in the middle of the night till 6am+. hmmm. bbq was so so so so so FUN. plus entertaining! the guys were running away from a HUGE grasshopper in the kitchen. the scene was so hilarious. the guys ran to where the grasshopper hopped to. and xz finally grabbed hold of it and BBQED that poor insect! like, OH MY GOSH. plus when they saw the grasshopper, there was a cockroach loitering near the bbq pit. so, cheryl and i screamed at the cockroach, we ran to the field. and when we ran to the field, ky told us there was a snail there, SO WE RAN. and when the guys were running away from the grasshopper, we attempted to stand on the bench to get away from all the insects. SAFEST! HAHAHAHA it was so funny! there were ALOT of incidents that took place, but i dont want to type all of them out. overall, chalet had been so enjoyable! :D :D :D

mmmmmmm, im so excited about tomorrow now!! i finally know what to do for my close church mates. :D :D :D AHHHHHHH. my heart is bursting with joy this very moment! :D

because He died for me.

2006-12-22T18:48:00.000+08:00

well, im back from chalet! wanted to blog before i left, but blogger was so screwed up. arg! will blog about it in my next post.

errrrr. went to grandma's house on monday morning. i miss my ahma so so so much! exchanged dj's tys with cheryl and headed to IMM next with wc, sarah, hk, and wc. sorry for making you guys wait for so long! checked the bbq prices and went to orchard. finally got my flats! :D :D hmmm, rushed down to jp but i was late. sorry faith! saw ls and jy too! took the train back and met mummy and sis! thats abt it for monday. :)

hmmm, christmas is coming!! (i know i've said this many many many times) i'm so excited. well, im still thinking of what to do for my loved ones. :) 'cos there is no time left for last minute shopping now. ZZZ.

the thought of stepping into expo hall 8 excites me so much, i'm smiling non-stop. God is always so faithful. He is so so so real in my life. :)

Jesus is the reason for the season.

when our eyes met,
it felt like heaven once again.

2006-12-22T16:08:00.000+08:00

back from chalet! so many stuffs happened! HAHAHA so funny.

1st day:
ate at long john with cheryl, sarah, ms, ky. met hk, wc and jh together and went down to pasir ris to catch our bus. surprisingly, the OTHER guys joined us in the shuttle bus too. reached the reception, waited for miss lum. checked into our room AND WHOOPEEDOO, the guys started playing PSP! -.- went out, took bus 15 to parkway. the ride was SUPER SUPER LONG. LOL scared jh on the bus while he was slping. LOL. bla bla bla. dinner at pastamania and giant!!! we were all playing with the trolleys and everything. SIGH, childhoooood times ): came back, slackedddddd. the guys were STILL playing PS2. -.- oh. and it was the time on the first night where i FELL. (cos it was raining the whole day) yeah. i tried to shock alvin, and HOW WOULD I KNOW HE WOULD BE SO SURPRISED. he FELL like superman and when he flew, he accidentally knocked onto me, and i got so shocked, i fell like supergirl too. SO MANY PEOPLE SAW US FLEW. so damn embarrassing ok. now i've got a blue black on my knee. while alvin knocked his chin (SO SORRY!) LOL. cant sleep in the night. kept tossing around and 3 of us talked till 430am. LOL. the aircon was freezing cold although i was wearing jh and my jacket. ZZZ. jh came in at 3am to take the jacket away cos he was going to macs. AWWW. woke up at 6am to find the guys STILL playing PS2. ky lent me his jacket before he went off. slept till 10am.

2nd day:
washed up and prepared the food till 3pm. went to kfc for lunch with ahkoon. prepared MORE food when we came back. thank God for the clear weather in the evening. :) ate ALOT. bbq-ed for about 4hours. it was so funny! there was a huge grasshopper in the living room. and the guys were running and screaming at it. xz caught it and bbq that insect! like, OH MY GOSH! plus, cheryl and i saw a cockroach loitering near the pit, so we kept ran to the field. and when we ran there, ky told us that there was a snail! so we ran! and we attempted to stand on the bench instead! hahaha. when the bbq ended, most of us went swimming at 1030 and got told off by the person-in-charge there. ZZZ. hmmm. bathed and almost everyone headed to macs for supper at abt 12am. walked to some kind of ulu area (the guys shld know) and came back to the chalet at about 2am. played cards till 6am. jh keep cracking us up with his spactic moves! LOL. the way he wins during heartattack is totally HILARIOUS. played 007 and chop chilli chop. oh, moved into room1 as well 'cos our chalet room has been infested with 3 cockroaches already. while playing cards, there was another cockroach in room2. screamed like crazy but that wc (the only guy left slping) was still in his lala land while everyone was on the bed jumping and staring at the cockroach. tim was the hero of that night! hahaha. slept at the living rm at woke up at 10am, followed by a grumpy worker from the chalet coming to find us to check out. ZZZ. scolded us like I DONO WHAT when she got the wrong chalet info. ZZZ.

3rd day:
so fed up with the lady. BLEH. ordered macs as everyone was so tired to go out to grab food. stayed in the chalet playing that bleach thingy using the PS2. super happy when i won ky! WAHAHAHAHAHAAH! hmmm. packed up, played heartattack for a while and went home. took the 7.55pm bus. went to pasir ris foodcourt and got home. :))

thats it for chalet. ((: miss you.

2006-12-16T21:56:00.000+08:00

i just wanna say...

"Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever." -Ps 136:1

well.. thats it! xD

2006-12-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

well, i know i say im going to be back on sunday. but well, i've to urge to blog. but i dont know what to type. ZZZ.

hmmm. i've finally finish watching one litre of tears. didnt know i could tear so much. its really really really good. that girl's courage really impacted me alot, etc etc. go watch it! (:

anyway i just want to thank all who have sent their warm regards to me. (if you know whats going on in my life) thank you anna, ben, siying, faith, justin. plus people like sarah, meimei, yf, hk, who wished me as well. thank you all. continue to pray for me. :D

well. praise the Lord! im able to attend christmas svc. IM SO HAPPY. truly, God has never ever forsaken me. He has blessed me so much. i was reading my past smses. siying, anna, faith, jx, eunice and ben (plus those whom i left out), i still keep your simple yet encouraging messages in my phone. it really made me smile in the middle of the night. smses from june emerge 2005 when i struggled, you guys were there. now in dec 2006, you guys are still pushing me. thank you so much. [[[[[[[: (gosh im sounding so emo)

these few days will be SUPER busy. running around, chionging my work. no, im not really grounded. so yea. :)

AHHHHH I WANT TO BUY AN ADIDAS WHITE CAP! LOL. okay that was random.

im out of words now. will blog soon when i've more things to say. thank you guys for ALL DA LOVE. and, this christmas is gonna be a blast. :)

2006-12-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

back to blog a short post. :)

life has been going on rather smoothly. currently watching 1 litre of tears on youtube. its a really touching show. go watch it and cry buckets. its a real heart wrenching drama. but you'll definitely get to view life in another point of view after watching it. oh, and i watched finish attack number one, again. SIGH.

this week has been quiet. and i thank God for people like anna, siying, ben, faith. i really dont know what to do without all of you. thank you all for your love and regards, everything will be alright. by faith. :)

its gonna be a busy weekend. chalet is coming up, like finally. ((: will blog more when sunday arrives.

meanwhile, together with all of you, im beliving for 51. :)

in Jesus name,
Amen.

2006-12-07T17:59:00.000+08:00

thats the slping queen! finally uploaded the retarded photos. this one is the MOST decent picture we took. HAHAHA SOH SIYING, i like your ALL your insane poses ok! they make me laugh. im serious. :D hahaha. :)

changed skin again. like duh. i guess... im gonna close down this blog once the holidays end, which is 21 days more. well... everything is going to be alright. :D

after reading kenric's blog. i guess.. its time i end my emotional rollercoaster ride. :)

its time i get on track. :D

hmmm. ah, im getting very excited. CHRISTMAS IS COMING! :)

36.

2006-12-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
Im carried in everlasting arms
Youll never let me go
Through it all

Hallelujah, hallelujah

well, dont feel like typing much today. i've found hope, once again. :D hope is in the Lord. Christmas is coming. cant wait. :)

♥Jesus, take my wheel.

2006-12-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

im back, and i feel so sick. PFFFT. sorry anna, peishan and leeting for postponing the trip. i'm really nt feeling very well. ARGGG.

well. have been going out these few days. out at town. hahaha. :D bs with faith on sunday morning! at starbucks. :D and after that i FINALLY got to meet my cg members. i cant stand leggings. arggggg! and nic was doing her "you guai shou you guai shou" action. LOL. :D

met mum for lunch at taka after that. delifrance. MMMMM. :) shopped around. finally got myself a black belt, which i have been hoping for a loooong loooong time. mum&i bought jeans too! :D God has been really good. He blessed me back almost four times of my bfund. how awesome is that. His word never fails. :)

went towning with siying yesterday. that girl is a real SHOPPING QUEEN, and a SLEEPING BEAUTY. was supposed to meet her at 11, and best ah, she only woke up at 11+. luckily i was only at my lift! caught abit of the Asian games thingy. WHOOO handsome swimmers. :D met her afterwards and we went to bugis. siam kitchen for lunch. and YF, i finally bought your ___. headed down to orchard. that girl. went to service her sony phone. and we had to wait like, 1hour! ZZ. i saw jolin working at wisma! :D :D hmm went to borders. still cant find the bks. ): went back to wisma, and she had to wait for another hour. ZZ ZAO AH. shopped at fareast. GOSH, so many jap guys there!!!! hahaha. took the bus down to cine. took photos. that ssy, WENT MAD. and some guy was laughing at us, silently. LOL. went to BK, met sotong eunice. watched deck the halls! :D superrrr lame can. HAHAHA. brahahahahaha. LOL! took neos after 57577302 years ago and ate at pastamania and bus-ed back. :)

gosh, its already the 5th of december. gonna quit shopping and START my work now. meanwhile, i've got to run down to the clinic. TATA.

Jehovah Rapha my healer.

2006-12-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

i feel so blessed. the Lord came through for me yesterday. :)

was able to attend w355's cg last night. its been so long since i'm seated in a cg meeting like that. had a nice nice chat with nat before the guys came. HAHAHA he couldnt see me from the window): haha. but, i got to see my beloved siying and sotong! i was super duper excited! and to top things up, jx and hh came to visit me before i left. and we exchanged hugs. :D how much sweeter can things get! :) such indescribable joy. thank you Lord. :D i was really touched.

well, nothing much happened. had a rough time last night sorting out my thoughts. thanks wc&xm for being there. dont worry wc, i will find my rainbow again. :) and talking abt xm, i miss trainings. HAI.

i hate getting emo. who does.

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't ~~shit~~
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don't know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you
I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You're number one, always in my heart
And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart

i will get up now and continue my race. i will.

like how we used to do it.

2006-11-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

my back hurts. training yesterday. :) went to the gym again as it was raining. then vb-ed for a while and pooooft, we went home. bathed and changed. caught superstar and zoooom! went to lot one to catch happy feet with liliang&xm. that xm kept complaining abt her hotdog. LOL. the show wasnt very entertaining. i was so so so tired, but that xm still made me laugh non-stop. hahahaha. bus-ed and reached home at midnight. :D

wasnt in time to meet them for project thingy in the morning. and luckily i had managed to realise my phone batt almost died. flew down. nvm, LIM MEI MEI WAS THE LATEST. like always. hahaha. met cheryl then zoooom, met sarah and we went to woodlands. someone made me smile today because of his silly-ness. sarah shld know. went to the library. awww, no more dream guy. HAHA the library was so so so empty. went to the pasar malam at yt and im back. :D

by the way, cheryl ee! you know dj's TYS that you passed to me, i've done those units already. AHHHH! HAHAHAHA anyway, dont turn into a guy! take of yourself! [:

well, right now.. i just feel like being alone.

All is lost.

2006-11-30T01:25:00.000+08:00

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time.

2006-11-28T15:07:00.000+08:00

wheeee, back from vb-ing! :)

went to vivo yesterday with anna. and somehow with her friends. creepy creepy creepy. hahaha yes, God is good! mum blessed me with my slippers! :D i really had fun with you anna ho! ahaha i'll remember our picture we took at the romantic setting. hahaha the view of sentosa at night from vivo is beauuuuutiful. saw rachel working there. :D :D :D and.. i was so afraid of going home ok anna ho. hahahaha its called conservative! hahaha. :)

well.. went vb-ing with vanessa and xy at the stadium just now. and OMGOSH, bpghs vb boys have absolutely stunning skills. whooo i love their fake blockers and the thunder spike! :) hahaha they are really coooooool players man! mm, liliang, xm and felicia joined us later. it was hilarious! lame stuffs always happens whenever im out with them. hahahaha. :D

its wednesday tmr. i have training!!! HAHAHAHA CHERYL EE, i have training! LOL. :D

well SIYING!! i think... WE WILL GET TO MEET ON FRI! provided nothing goes wrong. hahaha. and pls forgive me, i've not finished reading pst phil's Faith bk! =X I KNOW I KNOW. hahahaha. im v excitedddddd! :)

talking abt pst phil.. last wk's service was awesome. God's timing is always perfect. Lord please give me a much much bigger heart. :)

well.. late night phone calls are absolute love. hmmm, i think my posts are getting more light-hearted. hahaha. i've grown up! haha, well hopefully. i've got to realise alot of stuffs these past few days. ben told me so much, which set me thinking. the main point is... im moving on to my square two. step by step. i will make it. :D

jiayou peizhen! get back on track! the best is yet to come. God, truly your grace is more than sufficient. Lord, pls come and guide me. :)

just a memory.
sealed, kept.

2006-11-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

my head is spinning. argh. ):

met yf today! we finally got to shop together after YEARS. shopped at bugis! whooo! HAHAHA we walked like 4 rounds in bugis street. and in the end i only got my stuff. =x went parco, and icon. nothing much. i wanna buy my slippers! :D hahaha. =x

well, i just feel like saying this. thanks ben, for the company and the toblerone. hahahaha. :)

and, sohsiying, i miss you like crazy. ):

dinner with loves tomorrow. cant wait. :)

God is good, always.

some things cannot be learnt.
it has to be experienced.

2006-11-25T11:52:00.000+08:00

im back. and im so tired. lunched with felicia. went to school super early can. and yoko yoko (or whatever that is called) is superrrr smelly. hahahaha! boys came, bla bla. to me, it was quite chaotic. HAHAHA. anyway, training ytd was good ah! super funny can! hahaha :D

my muscles still ache like i-dont-know-what.

so OHYIFANG, we better walk slower tomorrow. hahahahaha! and go ask for $$$$$ can! i think flip flops dont suit you. so the best solution is to go barefooted. LOL. call me tonight!

hmmm, oh yeah, i wanna thank the hero yesterday. HEHEHE. for entertaining me at night till i really slept. and plus, i slept at 1030 last night. whoooo, i can stop being a pandy already! i was so so so so so so tired. luckily the movie outing was postponed, again. wheee, happy feeeeet! :)

&, i was really happy yesterday. thank you. <3

2006-11-23T18:55:00.000+08:00

im back. i need more time.

training yesterday was short, sweet, nice. rained, went to the gym. and thank God the rain stopped then we had outdoor training. :) oh, had bs before that, and then lunched with lw, xm and ll. hahahaha lazy to type names out. that xm ah, kept making me laugh. plus, she taught me some lame hokkien stuff. we were superrr high! i love my juniors! :)

hmmm, just came back from sentosa. :D really had fun with xy and st. feels so nice to be under the sun again, esp when its raining non-stop nowadays. the sand was burning hot! and my shoulders were aching because of the gym yesterday. superrrrr pain. ): but nvm, played match with others. YAYE. <3

not able to attend the minds cafe gathering. im so sorry people. i would really love to. i love w198. :D well, He knows the plans best for us. no matter what, i will still cherish every single one of you. :)

anyway, i hate rolling in bed and not getting to sleep, especially in the wee hours of the morning when im so tired. argh. i really detest this feeling.

well, to simply put it, reality hit me hard this time.

stop it.

2006-11-20T21:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm, went out with nicole yesterday! whoo! we went shopping at town! lunched at kfc, watched step up. channing tatum is superrr charming! *melts* hahaha. shopped at far east, taka, wisma, heeren! yaye i love that girl loadddds luh! finally got to do some catching up with her! <3 <3 <3

suddenly, i just feel so blessed. that i have friends who have always been there, encrouaging and motivating me whenever i feel as if im falling from a cliff. thank you.[: well, multiplication this thurs. ):

Don Moen's He never sleeps really stirred so much feelings in my heart. thanks kenric. :)

im gonna live by faith. :D

i dreamt...

2006-11-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE! :D

outings with beloveds. <3
catching up with primary sch friends! <3
completing of work. <3
shopping!! <3
nightlife. <3

christmas is coming! whooooooo! cant wait! :D im a happy happy girl! 'cos im finally going out with people who have completed their Os. wheeets! can't wait for chalet too. miss 2/6 loadddddds. :]

1more year! persevere on peizhen!!!

all i want for Christmas...

2006-11-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

gone for so long, back now. :) dont feel like updating my blog anymore though. rawr. i just feel that this is just a place to dump all my emotions and frustrations. so dear reader, you'll just be listening to me whine.

im quite upset over a few matters. yadayada. and i learnt my lesson. if you dont grab your chance when it arrives, it'll be gone in no time and it will never come back. such a simple logic, yet i took years to realise it. well.. what can i do now? i cant cry over spilled milk anymore. guess i just have to believe, and start dreaming once again. maybe, thats the real beauty of visions and dreams. dreams make one alive. :)

1 more day to the start of my dec holidays. well, what can i say? its just gonna be heavier work load, lesser townings, and perhaps, more surprises. cant wait till sunday, heh heh. well, i know i've not been hanging out with you guys (you know who you all are), find a date and we'll go out and have funnnnn[: and i really really miss retail therapy. ): bf, pz. well, window shopping wont be so bad too. :)

oh, a friend of mine got into the dance flooooor. yeahhhhh[: hahaha. and superstar looks... weird. hahaha. well, microsoft Zune looks pretty, at least to me. :D ok shoppppppppping]:

well, thats it for now. im gonna leave the blog hanging. i miss mummy!

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I'm such a fool - Talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted.

do you still rmb how you used to make me smile?
do you even remember?

2006-11-11T19:53:00.000+08:00

thats my current mood. trainings have been good. my whole body is aching. its alright, just that i've got so much work to do, yet im still doing nothing about it. someone wake me up please.

i've been running away. the truth is painful, but running away from the truth is tougher. no one ever said it was going to be easy, neither did anyone say its gonna be this tough. 7.

2006-11-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

HAO LEI.

gdbye.

2006-11-08T20:04:00.000+08:00

emo days are back. its not like i want it to happen. inevitable, and at some point, i really feel like biting peoples' heads off 'cos at some point, they have already gone past the limit.

well, back to lighter matters. xy, jo, and i were laughing like crazy people. all thanks to the volleyball trolley. the leg of it was caught in the handle, and we couldnt get it off. and the piano and some construction works are blocking the whole walkway can. it was SHITZXZX hilarious. hahaha. at xm made my day too. :D oh oh oh. nicole made my day toooo! AHHH i met that girl at macs! :D YIPEEEE! but then again, happy things dont last for long.

im tired. thinking of the multiplication makes me worse. ):

Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you

the flame just got a little brighter.

2006-11-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

hello im back. :D its officially a monday! no schooling for this wk! IM SO GLAD, i can finally have some more sleeeeep. all thanks to the O level examinations. i think if there wasnt any Os, we wont even have a one week break. bleh. isnt this how our school works!? we still have KMS anyway. arggggg.

weekends was fun. :D visited ahma! I LOVE MY AHMA. yes i love her loadsss! hmm. had bs with jx today. new style of bs. hahahaha. it was funny. did some catching up. and i realised i really really miss w198. its going to multiply, and its time to separate. i cant imagine what i will be without w198. although its been a short period of time for me, i really enjoy the times we had tgt. ok im getting emo. well, jx asked me a few stuff. and OH MY, i felt as if the Holy Spirit helped me to answer those questions. thank you Holy Spirit. i finally got to know myself better. definitely. i finally know the reason behind everything. :) well, met sarah up after that. headed to causway, lunched, worked. saw my eye candy (my dream guy) at the library. HEHEHEHE. i will not reveal who. hahahahaha. i met him in my dreams, im serious. so he shld be considered by dream guy. bleh. but its totally impossible. but at least i had a glimpse! :D

well, this song really touched me and challenged me for my bf. its a beautiful song. :)

Now is the time
When heaven blends with earthly saints
The world resounds as angels sing
“Our God reigns”
I give my all to You
I give my all to You

From heavens throne
Your river flows to this land
And on this rock foundations lay
Here we stand
I give my all to You
I give my all to You

Pouring out this treasure You gave
In Your promises, our hearts turn brave
I will arise and lay down this sacrifice
As we’re building Your house on high

Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as in heaven

oh, and and and and, aguilera's hurt is so awesome. the song and the lyrics are just fabulous. talking abt this, the quiz which i did in cheryl's blog is pretty accurate. meimei has irrational behaviour, wheras the quiz made wc and i sound as if we were superrrr emo people. ARGGG.

alright. it has been a long post. will be back in a few days time. :D

If I had just one more day,
I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away.

2006-11-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

i've got so much to say. :) firstly, my com is finally well. reformatted it. yipeee. thank God its restored back before next wk.

well, the past few days have been rather simple. lessons. trainings. the way i love it. and i still cant get over the fact that cca will stand down in term 2 next yr. sigh sigh sigh.

well. i've been physically drained this wk. but through Him, my strength is renewed. bf starts this wk. :) gonna be a great time of harvest. gear up pz. :D

hmmm, nothing much to blog anymore. so i'll just leave my blog hanging for the meantime. endless work to be completed. gdbye for now. :D

you once took me into your arms and allowed me to f l y.

2006-10-31T17:38:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog though. just that the class finally watched finish high school musical. whee! rashid has magical hands. and the couple finally kissed. LOL. at least it was a peck. leefeng got so shy. HAHAHAHAHA!! :D

M&M says:
i cant turn left mah
M&M says:
stupid bed
M&M says:
I WILL SMASH IT TONIGHT!!!
M&M says:
LOL
M&M says:
then i come ur house and sleep with you ok
M&M says:
HAHAHHAA
pei zhen #04. says:
horny. LOL.
pei zhen #04. says:
im gonna blog abt you.
pei zhen #04. says:
LOL
M&M says:
OMG
M&M says:
NOZ
M&M says:
i am so innocent

lim meimei is so horny, she wants to slp with me tonight. LOL. NOOOOOOOOOOO! hahahaha. stop being innocent/violent. anyw take care of your neck! tmr i will help you twist and turn it. i think i will strangle you instead. HAHAHA =x

oh well, 2hours of MT for tomorrow's lesson. ahhhhhhhh. anyw, tmr is going to be a long and hectic day. oh well. nonetheless, its going to be awesome. :)

Lord, pls take away the fear robbing my heart.

2006-10-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

its monday, only. SIGH SIGH. another 4 more days of lessons. SIGH SIGH. i want my sleep so badly. ): oh, i've changed to a new skin! pretty right! i know. oh, it takes a superrrrrr long time to load, but pls be patient. esp lim mei mei. LOL.

well, i've got to know ALOT of insights during lunch. hahhahaha im still in a state of shock. and that mr ng that superrrrr irritating pervert. S for superman sucks. =x i really cant stand his nonsense anymore. ARGGGGG.

hmmm, its gonna be a long week. oh, ms koh said i should get more sleep. hahahaha. nevertheless, this week is going to be fantastic. :)

ain't no other man like youuuuu.

2006-10-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

the weekend is gonna be over ): alright, blogger ate up my post. i think it was hungry. LOL. maybe my post for ytd was too emo, it got rejected. hahahaha. it may be a good thing too. hmmm. :D

bs with faith was good good good good good. well, screwed up my CL test. =x argh. anyway, faith lent me two bks! a divine revelation of HEAVEN. and, a divine revelation of hell. both by Mary K. Baxter. i really dont know how to comment on these two bks. but they are really good, and it made me think alot abt the Lord. both of the bks are based on real life experience of the author in both heaven and hell. her spirit was being taken up to heaven and hell by Christ. and she, tgt with Him, walked through both heaven and hell. the descriptions are super vivid. it made everything seem a l i v e. its superrrr scary in hell, wheras heaven is simply beautifullll. :) both heaven and hell are real. its not too late to repent. there is still hope now, im serious. im not preaching here, but i just want those reading my post to know that there are some things which are true. if you think that im too INTO this kind of stuff, and just sprouting nonsense, then i really cant do anything about it. well, nevertheless, its my blog and i type what i want. :)

well, sch tmr. -HUGE SIGH- another 18days to the end of Os, and after which i can get to meet soooo many beloveds. well, im waiting. :D :D

im so bored, im thinking about the end of yr ex 2/6's chalet. cant wait. :D

ciao for now. :)

time is running out.

2006-10-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

alright, im here 'cos lim meimei asked me to blog. well, changed skin (obviously). i find it superrrr dull and looks super depressing. HAHA i will change it asap again when i get bored with it. i want a white blogskin!

chew held us back after assembly ytd. wasted 30mins listening to his endless scoldings, and all we could do was to wait and stone. absurd way of punishing us i think. hmmm from this i can conclude that chew us moooooodswings. hahahaha =x then again, what had happened yesterday was totally ridiculous.

went to vivo city yesterday for the geog movie, an inconvienient truth. it was sooo sooo sooo lengthy! fell asleep for 10mins. hahahaha. and sarah slept through for half of the movie. the toilet became the favourite hideout during the show. hahahaha. and i was "talking" to agnes who was at the other end of the row. that was how boring it was. dinner at carls junior was.. super filling. the portion of their meal is horribly large (to me). anyw, vivo city is superrrrrrr huge. but i think i still prefer orchard. :D

extra 3wks of lessons for the sec 3s. HAI. another torturous period of time. ): sigh sigh sigh. i wish i can sleep more! hahahaha. =x

thats all for today. ciao.

2006-10-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i was here. this blog seems foreign to me now. hmmm, alot of stuffs are ongoing now. i really need time. time.

sometimes, dont you wish that if you have not met that someone in your life, wont your life be better off now? will you still be standing at where you are now if you have never known him/her? or would you rather be hurt and go through the pain, live life as it is, and let the wounds heal slowly even if that someone have hurt you so badly before?

oh, another thing. ptl! i can surely say that He who is in me, is HUGE. gigantic. enormous. you name it. hmmm, there are some stuff in life which you have to experience it by yourself, really. and no matter what happens, God is good. always. :)

hmm, i just want to say, cherish whatever that you have now. dont start regretting when you have lost that something or someone important to you. i've learnt things the hard way.

gdbye.

2006-10-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

towning with meimei was funnnn! just that my feet ached because i was wearing a different slipper. argh. anyway, went to wheellock! then walked to taka, then paragon, heeren, far east, and wisma. imagine how pain my feet were! argh. met quite a few people in town! hoho! hahaha. and ___ queen was taking RETARDED photos. :D oh, and i loveeeee low fat ice cream. hahahaha. :D

life has been quiet. someone is being sooooo nice to teach me how to cycle during the holidays! HEH HEH HEH. i think i will be losing my balance and screaming my head off. well, still thinking about it. i'd rather someone ride me! :D :D :D

alright, i've got alot of stuffs to work on. tata! x)

forget me, p l e a s e.

2006-10-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

towning with sarah was funnnn! crazy things always happen when i go out. argh. firstly, woke up at 12pm when i was supposed to meet sarah at 1215pm. thanks to someone's late night call till 2.30am the previous night. hahahahaha. met her at 1.10pm instead. next, got a crazy 190 bus which was superrrr fast and NOISY (the engine). arggg. next, totally throwed my face at that handsome salesguy in NUM. like, OH MY. hmm. shopped like crazy. tried on MANY caps, and urm, embarrassing stuffs started happening again. hahahahaha. :)

saw clement. and ____ queen there! HAHAHAHA far east is small! MEIMEI! dont forget our date on sunday! c'mon we'll take picturessssss! :D

hmmmm. ANNA, if youre reading this. pls know that I MISS YOU GIRL! jiayou jiayou for O's! im waiting to go out with peishan, leeting and you after your exams! and pls also know that i have placed our PRETTY photo on my table. so you wont be forgotten! and i can get to see you whenever i'm in my room! dont forget me toooooo! GO GO YEA! :)

well.. im tired. tmr will be a fruitful day! :D bye for now. :)

26.

2006-10-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

alright, im here because mr heng asked me to fill in a quiz. AHHH weicheng! im so reluctant! but since im nice, i WILL! :D hahahaha.

single, taken or crushing?
happily single.

are you happy with your life now?
yes im happy. just not satisfied.

when you meet the right person, will you fall in love with him/her fast?
guess i have not found the right one yet.

have you had your heart broken?
yes.

would you take someone back if he/she cheats on you?
dont know.

have you talked about marriage with another before?
not really.

do you want children?
yes!

how many?
hmmm, 2 or 3? :D

would you consider adoption?
maybe not.

if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
through sms, at least?

do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
i dont get into one just because i enjoy being in a relationship.

what is the furthest thing you and your ex did?
thats not for you to know.

do you believe in love at first sight?
in dramas, yes.

do you believe you can change someone?
yes.

do you give in easily when you are fighting?
depends on what is the situation like.

do you have feelings for someone now?
no, dont think so.

have you ever wish you could have someone but you messed things up?
?

have you ever broken a heart?
yea.

if one day your best friend falls in love with the same person you're deeply in love with, what will you do?
let the guy choose.

are you missing someone now?
ironically, yes.

thats it. this quiz is hard. ARGH. hahahahaha maybe hard is not the word. quite weird answering such questions! im tired. need to get my beauty sleeeeeeep! :)

2006-10-16T12:51:00.000+08:00

went to queensway ytd with miss ong st! HAHA and i was early! :D we walked ROUNDS. hahaha. bought my shorts, like finally. and i bought a shirt instead of the beautiful nike bag which really caught my eye. ahhhh i regret! hahaha c'mon someone bless me. nvm, i shall go back in dec. :)

anyway, the jackie chan movie is sooooooo cute! HAHAHA i was refering to the baby! wahahaha! so adorable! :D just like YUL! hahahahahahahaha. OH YI FANG, YUL IS MINE.

well, im trying my very best to catch up on alot of work which i am supposed to complete weeks ago. hmmm. building fund is coming up. :) i shld stop satisfying my soul and save up my money! gear up pei zhen! start eating less, shop less, and save more. HAHA i sound really excited. :D

alright, its gonna be a very tough period of time. but i know God never forsakes. :)

faithfulness. fruitfulness.

2006-10-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

YUL IS SO HANDSOME!!!

finally finished watching princess hours in 3days. WHOO! it was so so so nice. made me weep and laugh at the same time. 5 POPCORNS! hahaha. its gd. but just that YUL shld have been the main character. AHHHHH! HE IS SOOO CUTE! hahaha. okay im going mad. but which girl cant resist hunks? :P

watching the show made me realise so much. i saw myself in the ballerina hyo-rin. how she shed her tears for the guy she has loved all along even when he was married. it reminded me of myself. and the crown princess as well. kyung something la. haha. well... :)

sometimes i wonder. why does the 3rd party always have to suffer? like YUL, he was so nice to the girl. always listening to her problems, being there for her. but in the end, she couldnt return the love back. and why is yul, the 3rd party always sacrificing himself for her when he knows that she wont return it back? love is a bizzare. HAHAHAHA.

i've got so much running through my mind now. and LIM MEIMEI, if you're reading this, pls know that i miss shopping trips with you! and we seem to be facing similar stuffs. go out sooooon love. :)

alright, off now. nites world.

i loved you all along.

2006-10-12T12:19:00.000+08:00

im back. or rather, i didnt want to dump all the past entries i have once typed. all the past memories are worth to be kept. :)

didnt go to school today. 'cos i dont have any papers. its amaths tmr. please God, help me. :)

its been about a month since i've blogged. so much have taken place, so many changes. i dont know where to start from. maybe i've changed too. i dont confide in people as much as i did anymore. i dont speak so much as i once did. thanks to the exams. maybe its good in a way or so.

the past 4 weeks have not been very smooth going for me. the burning of midnight oil, sleepless nights. with so so so many things running through my mind. and i realised i've left out so many people in my life. and im running back to retrieve what i've lost. dont try to guess whats on my mind, you will never guess it. :)

my lovely cousin's wedding was held last week at regent hotel. sweet sweet weekend. :) weddings are just sooo beautiful. then again, its the marriage that is still impt. reminds me abt pst kong's marriage series, which i have NOT completed. =x

im at a loss to what i want to blog. the feeling whereby you are about to open the door of yr heart and spill all your thoughts out, but you just slammed the door back again. thats the feeling im getting now.

well, i shant be so depressed and leave now. amaths will be my friend for today. :)

one last request.

2006-10-12T12:09:00.000+08:00

1 more day.

2006-09-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

now i know.

went to woodlands library with chris, xy and xy's sis. was rather goooood! dinner at bk. totally hilarious. 1 sentence and i got myself 1 paragraph of replies flying back. hahaha. :)

2 more days to monday. this school holiday is simply too fast.

this will be my last post until term 4 ends. i will still fight for what i really want. life continues. :)

move along.

2006-09-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

hear me out tonight.

today was sooooo gooooood! yes i really enjoyed myself today! :D :D :D

had tuition in the morning. i had to wake up sooo early when im so tired. hmm. tuition was okay! my tuition teacher is funny! hahaha.

rushed down to yt afterwards to meet xy and st for lunch at 11.45. and we met so many players at the foodcourt! hahaha. and more people at macs. macs was COLD. hahaha, inside joke. sat there and waited for vanessa to come and have her lunch and vroooom, we rushed to school!

punggol, graduated seniors, and many others came today. just simply wow, wow, and wow. yep. so training started from 1.30 to 7pm. total COOLNESS! hahaha and the bball guys wanted to snatch the hall from us 'cos it was raining and they had a match. HAHAHA. too bad. hahaha. =x hmm. today's training was GOOD! :D :D :D

rushed to yt after training to catch a cab. thank God there were cabs at the waiting area. yeah the uncle was soooo nice and hilarious. hahaha. and thanks jy for waiting for me at the main gate! (although he wont see it) hmm. bbq was sooo fun! saw so many beloveds! YAY! :D :D :D wheeee! anna, peishan, susan, ben, leeting, jeanette and most importantly, w198!!! I LOVE ALL OF YOU TO TINY BITS! the best part was when i got thrown INTO THE SWIMMING POOL by jiaxin and faith. hahaha. OH MAN! of course i was soaked. ARGG hahaha. ate abit, played abit, and cabbed home with judith. too wet to even take the train. hahaha. :)

im very tired. gotta finish up some work by tonight! COFFEE will keep me going tonight! gonna burn the midnight oil!

hmmm, sometimes i wonder, am i creating more problems for myself? i dont want to land myself into any more nonsense anymore. enough is enough. mmm..

thought abt it. im gonna close this blog during term 4. i think it sounds pretty gooood! :)

no more..

2006-09-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

-

IM SO TIRED, i can just sit down and sleep right away. argh.

had bio extra lesson in the morning. WHOO! was soooo fun! hahahaha we were colouring the different parts of the kidneys on the paper. :) and sarah, fadyl and i were having some sort of picnic at the back. wahahaha!

went for lunch with shetqi. had extra time, so i went off to meet ben! hahahaha jerry and the cg people were at his house studying. funny how singapore is so small! hmmm. finally got to meet him after so many months. yeah we talked, and we talked, and we talked. mmmm. yeah. :)

went for trg. whooo! thank God it didnt rain! :) hmm. trg was tough, for once on wednesday. =/ mmm. and _____ was sharing to me abt her thoughts while running around the field. if it serves as a motivation, why not? :) argh. IM SO SO SO TIRED.

i cant believe the one week break is going to END. ): argh!

I GOTTA WAKE UP!

'cause we couldnt seem to find a way for love to stay.

2006-09-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

SORRY! =/

hmm. jinyi was making me LOL last night. his nonsense made me so !^&*! :O hahaha. but i had a good laugh afterall. that crazy guy. hahahaha. :)

chem today. i was freaking freaking freaking tired. and i was half-awake during chem. T.T it was raining! i was even too lazy to walk. too tired, too tired. i think i have lesser slp during the holidays! booo. i want to sleeeep!

finally finished watching aqmfs. like FINALLY. expected ending. yasi with xiaobei! but i still prefer my hunk shaowei! :O hahaha. its a happy ending afterall. well, what do you expect from such fairytales. =/

bio tmr. seems like im going back to school almost everyday during the holidays. so ironical. and aina didnt give me her _____ yesterday! ): ): ): cheated me of my feelings! hahahahahaha.

tmr will be a long day. hmmm. since i've finally finished aqmfs, its time for me to complete my PILE of homwork. boohooo. bye for now. :)

the kite eventually flew away.

2006-09-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

please dont tell me its real.

had maths lesson in the morning. yaye for once im really happy. and im sure the whole class was too! cause the lesson was one hour instead of two!! so can you imagine the excitment! hahaha. :D and ohyifang! stop laughing at my dream that i had last night. its quite... odd.

didnt go with the others to ms ho's gathering. =/ went to meet w198 up instead. and i was sooo happy! :D :D finally get to see them again! hai, chances like these are just so hard to come by.. but i really had fun! went to kbox. had klunch and we sang for 3hours non-stop. hahaha super high luh! whoo! i just love those people. and jx kept molesting me! T.T hmm. had bs with faith after that. was sooo gd. so much revelation. :) hmmm. oh. and i just knew that doubts come because there is FAITH! dont you think so? :) hmmmm yeah. simply love these people to BITS. :D :D :D

tuition was cancelled today. watch aqmfs again. NOOOOO! i cant stand the sight of xiaobei going with yasi! i think erqi is so much more man! =p hahaha. OH MY SHAOWEI! hahaha. but serves him right. who asked him to go and accept the other girl. hmmmmm..

close friend vs best friend. whats the difference? well, her answer shocked me. hmmm..

time is flying. monday is ending. i wish time can just pass me by slowly. till then..

im willing to listen
but it does not mean im willing to accept.

2006-09-04T01:45:00.000+08:00

will you still love me in the morning?

past few days have been really slack. either catching up on abit of my holiday hmk or otherwise watching vcds. currently watching attack number one and aqmfs! and no doubt having late nights thanks to the shows.

hmmm. attack number one is really really gooood! hahaha i love love love it luh. and yesterday this girl said "it takes courage to run away. but by doing this, you're just ruining yourself and you will eventually regret it". wow. it hit me like a ton of bricks. mmmm.

aqmfs wasnt that bad either. all the sappy love stories, triangles and everything. makes me really wonder why does mingdao always get to be chosen as the main lead and not shao wei. and look at what i saw in youtube "this is sickening. in MVP Shao Wei isn't as good in ball skills. in Westside story, he's the jailed one. in Ge Dou Tian Wang he's beaten to a pulp. in Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa, ye tianyu doesnt want him, then he has to take care of a mental patient. in Ai qing mo fa shi, he gives all to xiao bei but xiao bei likes ya si." very very true huh. and i think shaowei looks so much better than mingdao in aqmfs. but mingdao's charm is only slowly revealed at the end of the show. argh so many complications and everything. arggg. well.. such deceiving fairytales. nvm, fairytales are meant to be fake afterall.

i've got lessons tmr. got to slp! :)

"nothing is wrong when love is right"
dont you think so too?

2006-09-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

-

was at woodlands' MOS just now with sarah. mmm, saw a few familiar looking faces. hahahaha. and i banged my second toe onto the door while rushing to meet her. T.T i didnt know it will be so so so pain. ): stayed there for 4hours and came back.

went jogging at 9.30pm. hahahaha. it was so cool! now i know why someone likes running in the night already. its really really nice, to have the freedom of not carrying your phone out for once and to be able to be alone. and it feels as if the whole road is yours. its felt really good. oh, and i banged onto my right toe when i was about to go out again. whats the problem with me today!?

hmmm. i want to accomplish so many things during this short holiday, but there's only a limited time. sigh. =/

impossible is nothing.

2006-09-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

who knew.

well, joel broke a very shocking news to me last night. i cant be bothered anymore. if he's pissed, im more pissed alright. yes, so much for chemistry..

rewatching attack number one again. mmmm.

anyway, my shoulders have not recovered yet. and my body is still aching like mad. plus im suffereing from a massive headache today. so, bye.

2006-08-31T17:14:00.000+08:00

RAIN!

had car wash ytd after school. yea was cool cool cool! it was drizzling and we were washing the cars. the water hose was super super super strong. and everyone was soaking under the rain and playing with a WHOLE lot of water. hahahaha. fun fun fun fun!!! :D :D

had to attend training DRENCHED. was rather slack. went to the gym. usual stuffs. and my shoulder hurts like crazy now. coach changed the weight to 60kg. like HELLO!? ok forget it. everyone were doing and talking at the same time, so it was rather noisy. ahhh i miss vb! haha. and we made cards for mdm ng, ms chua and coach! hahaha. came back under the rain. total shiokness. had dinner and slept straight away at 8pm. that was how tired i was last night. and somehow, it was the first time last night whereby i received someone's call and the talk ended with "sleep well!" and, i really did! hahaha. :)

hmmm. tchers' day celebration today. yaye! celebrated with ms lee, ms ho and mrs quah. did hockey pockey and friendship dance! WOOOO! hahaha vvv fun! and the best thing was, all that we did were really unplanned. well, im glad 3/7 is somehow having a class spirit now. :) had tcher's day concert and all. and i hugged huihui and liang tong! AHHHH! hahaha so glad to see them again! :D :D :D

went back to primary sch. saw alot alot alot of primary school friends. judith, peifen, kh, jh, joshua, ningxin, shirin, and the list goes on. it was soooo fun! saw so many tchers! and i was suan-ed very badly by everyone. 'cos everyone really changed and all, in terms of HEIGHT. T.T went up 6C with zah, judith, shirin, ning, hester. reminiscening the past. it was soooo fun! and my primary school is SO MUCH RICHER!! they have 3-5 speakers, 7 fans, class projector, class visualiser and all. ahhh! and we took lots of pics and had alot of fun with the whiteboard and all! nvm, just more fans in my classroom will do the job. HAHA im really desperate for fans at the back. played badminton with mr ng and he shared ferrero rocher chocolates with us! laughed and played till 3pm! and whooooo! and played under the rain and everything! fun fun fun fun! :D :D :D but well, chances like that dont come often. maybe only once a year. awww. =/

rain rain go away. i want to go to sentosa in the days to come!

hmmm. oh yeah. Pink's who knew is sooo nice! emo song again.

thats all. the pain on my left shoulder is ripping me apart.

i'll keep you locked in my head
until we meet again.

2006-08-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

sweets!

school was alright. my class is having some kind of booth for cip! and all of us smuggled sweets into class. heh heh. and the whole of the back row was practically munching and muching throughout the day. and kenric was even better, eating nuts under the table. hhaha.

just that i got caught for mr ng for eating. seriously, he's the ever worst teacher i've ever seen, other than chew. pardon me, but he is a sickening bastard. seriously, he shld go and do something to change what he says and what he thinks. i dont understand why a teacher has such a pervertic mindset. and im totally disgusted by his actions. the girls in my class shld know what i mean. he is totally sick.

ten weeks have passed so quickly. ms ho is leaving us. ): sigh. i hope we get to change our english teacher again. :/ just cant stand mr ng anymore.

just wanna blog that the chemistry is getting scarier each day. erm, yea.

anyway, finally found my ss tb. forgotten that i placed it in aileen's locker weeks ago due to lack of space in mine. so yeah, im soooo glad! :D :D :D

im tired. well, i dont know what im doing for the past few days though. to put it simply, i aint me.

thats about it. i've got work to do. till then..

2006-08-27T21:16:00.000+08:00

standing up again.

went shopping with my mum just now! WHEEE! without my sis. combed tangs and heeren. bought 2 shirts and spent close to $300. =/ ok im not doing any shopping till december. need to recover from the shock first. only managed to get one person's present. _____ queen's gift is still left undone. ): so hard to get gifts. anyway, now i know why i can never walk with heels. because my mum cant too! hahahaha. and i saw this DAMN NICE green heels at tangs, but the sad thing was i cant walk with it, it was too high. ok i want to learn how to walk with heels by the end of this year! c'mon, SOMEONE PLEASE TEACH ME. im serious. well, i still cant find myself a nice dress for my cousin's wedding. most of the dresses are too big sized. T.T hahaha. anyway, i simply love love love my mum! :D :D :D

oh. was watching svc in the morning. and it was on ___. hahaha okay must be open. yep, was on sex. hahaha. and ytd was on the IN-LAWS! hahaha totally hilarious. pst kong never fails to make me laugh. :D :D :D

hmm. this week is going to be so relaxed and all. somehow, i dont wish the sept holidays to come so quickly. HAHA i will miss my chemistry. HAHAHAHAHHAA. somehow, im still amazed by how two people can bump into each other so many times in a day. no, dont get me wrong, and im not in the league. hahaha. :D :D

somehow, you've changed. you no longer sound like the one whom i know. hmmm.

alright random pictures of ytd's outing. there were A WHOLE LOT of retarded pics. dont wanna post them up. its too embarrassing. oh, i forget to add that we saw alot alot of bling bling at bugis. arghhh. hahaa and we laughed like mad there. saw ben yeo there as well. whooo! hahahaha. and for goodness sake, im NOT huiyi's boyfriend. im straight, and i only look for GUYS. lol.

well, guess thats all for today. will blog again when im free! :)

love kills slowly.

2006-08-27T00:14:00.000+08:00

give my love.

spent my day completing homework. sadly, not finished yet. sigh. went out to causway with huiyi at night to get jo's present. whee! HAHA 15mins and we were done shopping! yep. there was pasar malam going on there as well. and all i spent my money on was food, and more food. damn it. ): HAHA.

dont you think wallace huo just look gorgeous? HAHA he will be my eye candy for next week! haha. hmmm. been so long, and now i feel like watching sappy love stories. c'mon, entertain me and make me weep. wahahahahaha. :D

was thinking abt alot of stuffs last night as she came to talk to me. maybe now i understand things better. dont worry, i wont give up. :)

maybe if you guys are free, go type "toro" in google's image search. you will get amazing results. sarah and i were laughing like crazy just now over the matter. :D

hmmm. thats it for today. will blog again when im free! :)

i will continue to run after You.

2006-08-25T22:37:00.001+08:00

SHOPPING!

school was hilarious today. mr toh was sharing abt ___ organs and stuff. and HAHAHA it was simply hilarious. read cheryl's blog for more info. haha. school was vvvv funny today. mitch and i kept fighting at the back of the class ACROSS ck. i wanted to see his ez link card photo and he didnt allow! ): hahahahaha.

rushed home after the online survey. changed and went to meet huiyi! and i was early! yeah, im getting it. HAHA. hmmm. yep, i waited cause she had to make a lot of money at home. hahaha. went to bugis after that. walked ICON, bugis st and parco. anyhow, i still dont like bugis. i hate their laces and fake goods at bugis st, and i hate their ahbeng and ahlian fashion. im sorry if i offended anyone. but RAH whatever. anyway, didnt buy much. and i ate alot. ): ): ): HAHAHA. some pig i am. and the best thing is, i went there without buying anyone's present. how pro is that. and spent close to $50. HAHA huiyi was worse. hahahaha. but orchard still rocks my socks! HAHA. nvm, sunday!!! :D :D

im tired. and im patiently listening to my junior about her problems. guess she hopped onto the boat i was on in the past. her problems made me reflect on how fragile and foolish i was in the past. crying over a guy who was not worth my tears, i wasted so much time. well, it just brings back so much memories. ):

anyway, i was shopping just now. and i came across a postcard. the words in it touched me so deeply. well.. hmmm.

sometimes, we get too carried away with our stuff, we forgot about the people around us who care and love us. and, who said that it was easy facing obstacles? sometimes, i really doubt myself. im not satisfied with my life. i really want to gain what i desire. but, can i really stay strong in times like this?

well, just something to think abt.

i've got alot of work to do, and a lot of stuffs to settle. till then. :)

im screaming on the inside,
but can you hear my cries?

2006-08-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

hope.

im back, with a lot of strange happenings and stories to to tell. and great, i've no idea where to start from. mmmm.

i hope i dont go mad after sitting THERE. seriously, so many things have happened ever since the changing of seats. the person beside me is totally....... weird. thats the only word to describe him. i hate to say this, but he breathes damn loudly in class. especially in the mornings. HELLO, I NEED MY SUPPLY OF OXYGEN TOO. damn it. even the fans cant blow louder than his breathings. huiyi, i finally know the agony. and, he hums, he does beat box. and he acts like nothing happens whenever i turn. T.T and i have to always scream at poor goldfish to keep quiet, INDRECTLY. (if you get what i mean) and whenever i talk to goldfish, ms lee will start saying golfish is trying to flirt with me. wth, if i cant talk to the person beside me, cant i talk to the person who is sitting at the same row as me?! and ms lee was saying that ck (the initials of the guy sitting beside me) was being the window, while mitch talks to me. YES, HE IS A WINDOW. to me, he is. he is so transparent i talk ACROSS to mitch without even noticing that he is there. and i really feel like breaking the "window". thats how bad it is.

plus, the incidents that took place during eng aep was even more exciting. ck suddenly hit his chest so loud for no reason, and the next second i turn and stare, he is back at his normal position, listening to miss ho. TELL ME, IS THIS HUMAN? he hit his chest SO SO SO loudly, its louder than a gong. and he really makes me wonder, if he likes inflicting pain on himself. and he can forget that he brought his phone to school. tell me, HAVE YOU SEEN SUCH A PERSON? and goldfish made me laugh so hard when he told me that ck has sexy lips. like, wth. i really have enough of ck, although i NEVER talks to him, his actions are enough to make me so speechless, i really have nothing to say.

i mean, TELL ME, how can i ever survive there?

but i think the more IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT THING IS...

CAN THE SCHOOL JUST INSTALL MORE FANS IN THE CLASSROOM? i'm so sick and tired of fanning myself like crazy when its 12pm. the weather is a KILLER.

alright, enough of nonsense. i shant talk abt him anymore, i dont want to destroy this post. and i feel very bad talking about him like that. but i need to vent my frustrations somewhere, so pardon me. hmm, went to meet nicole up after aep! and we had ljs! (the reason why i dont lose weight) yep. we just sat there and talked and talked and talked. such a nice and quiet fellowship. and i realised i've lost touch with the cg so much. hmmmm. :)

sometimes, knowing TOO much abt people's lives aint good. waiting for someone so unrealistic, i really dont know how to comfort her. to me, to love or to be loved, both hurts. one-sided love, it hurts. but who are we to judge love? it simply comes with a price. are you able to sacrifice everything for someone you really love? mmmmm.

just want to add that wed's training was fun fun! wai tze was suan-ed so badly. hahaha. and hmmm. yeah we played match under the rain! i like! hahaha. luckily it was only a drizzle! hmmm, loads of stuffs happened. but, training was still, FUN FUN! :D :D :D

i keep thinking tmr is saturday. seriously, i dont see a point in going to school tmr. there's no aep tmr. and yes, TOWNING! :D :D D :D

and its really scary to have ALOT ALOT ALOT of chemistry with someone. it makes singapore seem so small. no, the school. makes everything seem so tiny. everywhere i turn, i'll just bump into him. somehow, i get to meet him everywhere i go to. its really getting scary.

i'm sorry by craig david is superb. i think im falling in love with his songs. the lyrics are just, fantastic. well, at least they seem meaningful to me. thanks Ghost. :D

sometimes, it feels nice reminiscencing on past memories. but reality hit me and made me realise, you're gone.

yes, i do remember.

2006-08-22T15:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND! :) hahahaha ive got so much to tell you! :D :D

didnt have aep today. like for the first time ever, aep is cancelled. it feels so so so gd to come home at 3pm. SO EARLY, for once!

plus, class seating arrangement has changed. and yes, it sucks. nvm, i can talk ACROSS the class. i miss my liu popo. nvm, at least i still get to sit with jojo during history! YAY! history lessons will be my favourite from today onwards. hahaha. dont know who were the people who wanted to change seats huh! and its so freaking hot at the other end of the class. I NEED A STRONG FAN THE BACK URGENTLY! !@$^ ROARS. i cant speak to the person beside me at all, cos we practically dont have anything to talk about. and at most i can only talk to the goldfish. nvm, i shall learn the art of talking across others. goldfish shld be rather happy. cause his partner has moved to somewhere closer to him, and they wont entertain themselves in some long distance relationship anymore. the sight of them making eye contact makes me laugh like crazy. and leefeng knows im desperate to talk to someone. and i hope kenric will turn back more and make me laugh. and girlfriend, you better turn around and talk to me. but im more desperate to still have a fan on top of me. why cant the school just install more fans!? forget it, i will stop complaining. argh.

hmmm, im excited for wed, thurs, fri, sat, sunday. this week is gonna be fun fun fun fun! and i suddenly miss my grandmother very very much! ):

SHOPPING! YAY!! but first, i need money! hahaha. i still have not received any from the sky yet. hahahah. I NEED MONEY TO SHOP! anyone? =) hahaha.

blooooody hell. i had accidentally deleted all my notes in my phone. so pls tell me when is your birthday! well, im nice. :)

i suddenly thought, maybe sitting there wont be that bad afterall. the most i will just spend my time thinking abt loadddds of stuffs there. and still staying focused during lessons. :) more thoughts mean longer letters to you girlfriend. :)

anyway, sarah and i went crazy over the chinese newspapers today. she was far crazier. we spent our time reading classifieds together. and there were so many overseas packages thing. and i asked her, "where is ya zhou?" and she replied me "duck porridge lah". hahahahaha, i think its "au zhou" instead. ok nvm. and so afterwards we thought of buying houses. HAHAHAHA. and i was asking her which agent was better and all. and she went, "this one this one. got photo. at least can be trusted." crazy partner. hahaha.

hmmm. having chemistry with someone may be a gd thing. but what if youre having far too much chemistry with that someone? urgh. hahaha. fang shld know best what im talking about. :)

well, my juniors suddenly reminded me of something. maybe the person who loved you all along does not understand you. and vice versa. hmmmm. then again, love is a strange thing.

alright, thats all for today! will blog again on another day! :)

because you make me smile.

2006-08-20T20:25:00.000+08:00

agape!

finally watched monsters inc for the first time. it is such a sweeeeeeet and touching movie! too cute for words! just like pandas. hahaha ok kidding. :D

caught the role of a husband in the aftn. :D and its always so heart warming to watch what happens at the end of the svc. :D true love does not have a happy ending, because true love never ends. indeed.

mum wants me to save up on the ed hardy tee that i want to get. ahhhh! pls rain money down!!

anyway, gf showed me an emo video last night! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CUQalySOm2w&mode=related&search and that guy with selina is soooo cute! nvm, he was cuter in it started with a kiss. :D :D

hmmm, craig david's unbelievable is sooo beautiful. i mean the lyrics. go listen to it! :)

i've got so much to say, but no idea where to start typing from.

nvm, till then! :D

now i see what love means.

2006-08-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

love is centered in the will,
accompanied by emotions!

AR Bernard!! totally blown away! its simply soooooo goood! just, WOW!

life is packed like mad. tomorrow is gonna be a busy busy day! YAY! i like busy days! hahaha. :D

not forgetting, happy 16th birthday to MINGJIE! :)

KRISTOS KAI KOSMOS! :)

2006-08-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

we will fight!

school was alright. had the chinese music thingy after school. yeah i sat there and stoned. emo songs. hahaha. fang kept hitting and slapping my legs for no reason. crazy. there was this lower sec guy using his head to hit his friend and ended up crying. i dont know what, why, how. hahah. =x and the shooting of paper aeroplanes.

left after jo sang sun's song. couldnt take the boredom anymore. went to MAKAN with vb people! haha. seriously, they make me laugh, and they make my day! hahaha. pork meat is sooo meaty! but pork meat doesnt like to eat beans. HAHA ok private! i was being bullied by jiaying and kahyan during lunch! wahseh! haha. hilarious stuff. :D

training was goooood! match was gd. just that for the second match, alot of juniors started throwing temper and started breaking down, including ______. not me. hahaha. everything takes time. :) but it started to get better during the third match! exciting and we were all screaming and screaming. felicia, liwen and i were going nuts during trg. and i cant stand _____, she's the bra seller. hahahaha hilarious happenings going around. hahahaha. i dont wanna leave the team yet. i hope the year will just end slower. =/ anyway, vb-ing really makes me happy. and my vb mates always make my day. :D :D :D

oh. special thanks to huiyi for helping me get back a vb in the band storerm! YAY! hahha i love you woman! :D

hmmm. i've many things to blog about actually. but come to think of it, forget it. i'd rather keep it to myself and tell those who really wanna listen to what i have to say. i dont want to get shoot at anymore. not because i hate you for criticizing for what i blog, but because im hurt by what you've said.

too many things have happened this week. agony, disappointments, hurts, setbacks. you once told me, time can heal everything. you said it yourself. if its the case, then time can heal the hurt, it can seal the wound, but it will leave a scar behind. i cant obtain something that doesnt belong to me. we have lost it again and again. we cant get it back anymore. and now i know, the person who loves more will eventually be hurt more. im sorry for the hurt i've caused you. i am the cause of your misery. i should leave. i dont wanna make things any worse.

its funny when you counsel someone who has the same problem as you and you advise him/her to do bla bla bla, when you yourself aint thinking right. mmmm.

hmmmm. currently looking for new phones. hmmmm. i really wanna go shopping with my mum!! soon, soon. :)

anyway, is singapore really small or what? why do i meet _____ wherever i go!?!? its driving me insane. HAHAHAHA.

thats about it. its been a loooong post! i think listening to tiger lily made me more EMO. life's changing drastically. everyone is changing, so am i. but everything is gonna be alright. :)

p.s my knee, i think its getting ~~better~~ ~~worse~~ nowehere to recovery. soon, soon. HAHAHA.

"dont look back, dont risk it".

2006-08-17T16:12:00.000+08:00

its all my fault.

school was goooood! :) spent the whole night mugging for history test. argh. and the paper turned out to be so tough, like always. hmmm. cheryl and i were DREADING to go for aep 'cos we both wanted to go home so badly. but bio aep was great. mr toh was hilarious. and yuansheng kept walking ard the classrm reciting his story to everyone after aep. hahaha and everyone was giving him the weird look.

mrtoh: stop saying its gonna rain, if not i hold all of you back longer.
huiying: but i need to keep my laundry.
me: and i need to feed my pet dog.
yuansheng: yah, later her pet dog die how! wah mr toh no heart!
mr toh: i have worked in spca before!
class: WAHHHHHH.
me: mr toh!! quickly! my dog is video-calling me!
mr toh: ya ya right. ask your dog to go fly kite.
yuansheng/me/cheryl: what is go fly kite?
mr toh: means GO GET A LIFE!

hahahahahaha. okay. hilarious conversations always go on in bio lessons. hahahaha. :D :D :D so having bio lessons arent that bad afterall! and pe was so so fun! cause we played vb! yaye yaye! :D :D :D

so many people's birthday are coming. oh man. im going to go broke! meimei! stop giving me lame requests! at least give me a proper one! and are you really sure you want red ______? thats so gay! jkjk. haahahahahahahaa.

oh. promised weicheng that i'll blog abt blingbling. its a long and hilarious story. hahahaha. all thanks to kohjiahao for inventing it. and making huiyi and i laugh like crazy. and i showed sarah the picture today and she went laughing like mad. HAHAHAHA. okay. we're real mean. =/

finally got my tiger lily! thanks Ghost! always helping me to dl songs! fang had also sent me an emo song which turned out to be v retro. nvm. i still love my tiger lily. we're emo people.

listening to tiger lily made me so emo i wont feel like blogging anymore for now. i will blog again when there's time. :)

"i don't want to speak these words.
'cause i, i don't want to make things any worse"

2006-08-16T20:18:00.000+08:00

did i mention i love my vb team SO much? :D they really make me laugh and laugh. hahahaha. training was gooooood! :D :D :D

thanks fang. it has made me so speechless. maybe i should just shut up and mind my own business from today onwards. not in the mood to blog.

hate me. please hate me. hate me for the rest of your life. HATE ME.

2006-08-15T22:07:00.000+08:00

-

school was alright. jo was making me laugh. hahaa i miss sitting with her. ): it was raining and all. and mrs quah had magic powers because she was able to control the wind! wow. hahaha. like what fang says, the wind blew stronger and stronger when she raised her hand and looked up, and the door slammed so many times when she looked back. hahaha. and i dont understand why hole punchers always spoil during chinese. oh man. my papers got stucked inside ytd, and sarah's fastener got eaten as well. hahahaha.

been thinking about alot of stuffs. yes i dont care, because it makes me realise what i have been doing when i start thinking. so many things have occured this week. and i've finally received meimei's letter! her letter made me realise alot of stuffs i've never though about before. i've came to a conclusion. i've made up my mind. i cant be with you. i dont want to create false hopes in you. dont wait for me, because im not turning back. im sorry.

well, thats all for today. will blog again when im free. :)

God is good, all the time! all the time, God is good!

2006-08-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

FIRST.

school was alright today. yesyes i almost fell down the stairs when going down for assembly today. -.- school was alright. no, crazy. busy busy busy busy! work coming from everywhere. and yes, and im really short of time. ): gonna be a busy week. finally caught a glimpse of ky's innocent face in class today. hahaha. and amanda's matters made fang&i laughed like crazy. :)

brotherKC's new song is soooo nice. anyway, got to run! will blog when im free again.

God please help me!

I love, because You first loved me
I live, because of what You gave
You died, showing me how to live
Your mercy taught me to forgive

You came and poured Yourself so free
Your blood washed away my shame
And now I can live again
I'm more of You and less of me

My first love
Forever You will be
My first breath
You're the life in me
My first joy
The world can never take from me
My covenant with You,
Jesus.

Your love falls down over me.

2006-08-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

-

whole body was aching today. T.T anyway watched online service and all. :D new song! yaye! hmm. today was on the role of the wife. i think i need to rewatch it. missed out on alot of blanks. argh. hmmm thats it.

was talking to someone regarding church matters. and im just so glad that i burst out everything to him. i couldnt contain it anymore. and i was just on the verge of breaking down in front of my com. thats how bad it was. but i know, he will be someone i can count on always. :)

thats all for today! nites!

2006-08-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

i know you will be reading this. but im sorry i cant accept anything anymore. its impossible, you know it. im sorry.

2006-08-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

big vs small!

lessons were very relaxed today. i mean, everyone was not even in the mood to study. every lesson was soooo noisy and hyper. hahaha and rashid kept laughing at me. thanks to the lame stuffs i told him on wednesday. hahahahaha. :D

had that chinese talk. bah. went for it instead of aep cause it ends earlier, means i can go for training earlier! :D :D hahaha. still the last, but at least i arrived 30mins earlier than usual! :D hahaha. shetqi and i were bored like crazy during the talk. we were like, "can we go now?!" when the talk just started for 5mins. hahahaha. =/

anyway, training was funnnn! hahaha. :D did new stuffs! well, just that coach suddenly flared up and ordered us to keep everything at 5.45. which was so so so so early -.- did PT. been ages since we did the people-jump-people (direct translation) and half-squat (direct translation again). hahaha. yup. and mdm ng gave us M&MS! wheee! :) hahaha. went for dinner with st and xy after training. yaye! :D

anyway, click's a movie you wont wanna miss! its sooooo damn hilarious can. hahaha. super climax. and super touching! ahhh! i like! :D and huiying has elaborated her opinions and everything in her blog. so yea! go read! :)

sometimes, things dont go the way we want them to be. but i know God has greater plans for me, and you. and someone told me before, its always best to let go, and let God. :D

hmmm. i've got loads of stuffs to complete. and i must learn how to control my flesh. arghhhhhhhhh. God guide me!!

alright, bye for now! :)

you know, i know, the world doesnt need to know.

2006-08-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

deleted the previous post. it made me feel even worse. i've thought abt it. and came to a decision!

the battle continues! because i wanna fight for what i really want.

time to get my priorities right! &truly, God comes first.

"For with God nothing will be impossible." -Luke1:37

and i surrender all to You.

2006-08-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

DRIFT!

had national day celebration in school just now. hmmm. was fun fun! playing with balloons all the way. scaring others but ended up scaring myself. kenric and mingshu just made me laugh like mad when they tried to run and step onto the balloon, but it flew away instead. and it happened so many times. hahaha. hmmm. went to play vb for a while after that. :D :D :D

went home to bathe and headed down to my grandmother's house! :) hahahaha. i love my ahma! she's so so so nice, and so cute. rj, our grandmothers are forever cute. hahaha. :D hmmm. i missed my grandma of course. had a nice nice chat with my aunt. but. okay nvm. no matter what, i still love them. :)

hmmm. went down to marina sq after wards. somehow we walked to suntec and walked back to catch our show. TOKYO DRIFT! seriously, this is hot stuff. HAHAHAHAHA. hot babes and bad guys with cool cars and tactics. brillant! :) hahaha. just in time to catch the fireworks that happened at the esplanade! so so so so pretty! WOW hor. hahaha. i miss huge crowds v much. hahaha alright call me mad. sg is really a small small small island. hahahahaha. :D if you get what i mean. hmmm. yup. :D

my legs are aching. and im so tired. i need to slp now. hopefully my thoughts will drift far far away from me.

anyway, HAPPY 41ST BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! yay its truly a place where i call my home. :D

I LOVE SINGAPORE!

i cant bring myself to do it.

2006-08-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

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didnt go for chc's 17th anniversary today. ok whatever. basically had a row with mum until 2am. had to catch online svc in the end. was gooood! CCC and don moen were there! and they had a huge huge birthday cake! whoo! sun was on the line. and yep! celebrated pst kong's 20th year in ministry and chc's 17th birthday. great great word by pst kong. :D oh well. missed out on alot of fun. ): anyway, happy 17th birthday city harvest! :D its truly a place where i can call my second home, a place where i know my destiny and dreams will be fufilled. together with a wonderful cg. i never regret going and knowing the ppl there. :D

national day is coming! YAY! i love you Singapore! :D :D :D :D

hmmm. havent been a pretty good day. but i thank jx and jeanette for being there for me these past few days. thanks. i really needed encouragement and support. :)

my life's gonna make a big U-turn from today onwards. things are constantly changing. its time i wake up and stop dwelling on the past. life goes on.

im sorry for all the hurt i've caused you.
but i thank you for all the love you have shown to me,
my beautiful disaster.

2006-08-06T14:33:00.000+08:00

this world aint my home.
never will it be one.

2006-08-05T18:39:00.000+08:00

PLAIN DISAPPOINTMENTS.

i dont want to see all these going past me.
please?

please God, please.

2006-08-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

excitement!

today has been a mad day. running all over the place, getting my stuff done. hmmm. lessons were alright. :) AEP was hilarious. some kind of eraser and paper balls war started. sarah, me, jh, wc, xz, nelson, yf, amanda. hilarious! we were laughing like crazy. and all thanks to sarah for starting the war. i was trying to control to laugh so badly, but i burst out laughing in the end. plus, sarah and i were trying to play badminton using the paper balls with our book. it failed. and the way sarah swing her book was. hahahahahahahahaha. anyway it was just amusing. got me so high! :)

training was even better! :) had friendly against the guys and we won. hmmm. the best part was when coach left and we had to play match ourselves! whoo! haha nora and huiwen was on my team. and the real fun and excitement started. every point was just so important and the game was very intense, i cant put it to words. everyone was screaming and we were all so so so high! im loving volleyball-ing more and more each day. :D

thats the end for today. :D been a pretty high day. thank God it was better than yesterday. problems arising. dont worry, i wont speak a word about them. i dont want to trouble others anymore, i will try to settle my own stuff myself.

been a pretty goooood week! i like! national day celebration next week! whooo! :D yaye i love you Singapore! :D at least there's 3 days of going high and stuff. :) i miss shopping! boohoo! ed hardy i miss you! hahahahaha.

anyway meimei! reply my letter ok! or else.. you know what will happen. hahahaha. :D

fallen in love with another song, mighty to save.

Everyone needs compassion
Love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations

Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine Your light and let the whole world see
We're singing
For the glory of the risen King.

beautiful song. i like! :D

alright, thats it for today's post! :)

take me away from all my troubles.

2006-08-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

will this world ever contain love and trust?

far too many flashbacks. flashbacks of defeat and victory. hmmm. anyway i just found out that words can kill. from today onwards, i wont ask silly questions anymore. i will handle my troubles, and be responsible for my actions. i dont wanna be seen so fragile anymore.

thats it. tmr will be a better day.

God help me.

2006-08-02T23:15:00.000+08:00

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school was fun fun fun fun today! esp ss/geog. hahaha. totally hilarious! i like kenric's POSE! it made me laugh so much! :D hahaha. and like always, lf and kenric were trying to entertaining us with different kinds of slangs at the start of the lesson. =.= for once i was so high during ss!

training was great! some of the vbs were wet, thanks to the puddle of water at the side. =.= coach left halfway through. hmmm! did normal stuffs and played match! :D and that st was saying it was a miracle that i went up to the hall to pack the equipment after trg. =.= hmmm. oh. poor sec2 xiaoying. st was trying to pull her bra stripe during running. ohmygosh. i was laughing while running. hahaha. and that st! so scared of that ji xiong rou! tsk! hahaha. and that xinmin! really want to box her! wahseh! she threw her kneepad at me! on my shirt, on my shorts. yep! so we had kneepad fight after debrief. oh man, she's one crazy junior. haha. :D

oh. he showed me his photo today. and i was laughing like crazy! hahahaha totally hilarious stuff. :D hahaha.

i've got work to complete! read fang or huiyi's blog for more info for what had happened ytd. dont wish to elaborate on anything abt it. =/

thats about it for this post. will blog another day! :)

"The LORD is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD
Forever." -Psalms 23.

come and guide me, Lord.

2006-08-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

the smile that left me so speechless.

your smile.

2006-07-31T21:41:00.000+08:00

it feels as if its going to be a rough week ahead.
but i know God will control the raging seas in my life. :)

"this is the day the Lord has made, we will rejoice and be glad in it" -Psalms 118:24

2006-07-30T12:31:00.000+08:00

rev mike connell has been so wonderful. blown off by his msg. such a pity i cant go this wk. im indeed very very upset. why. ): ): ): i'd really really like to go and experience the casting out of demons. ): nvm, there will be a chance next time. but, next time seems a long way to me.

i have been thinking alot for the past few days. its time to put my priorities right again. i know my priorities will never change, no matter what happens. its time i inject some discipline into my life.

hmmm. anyway, just want to share with all of you something that i came across last night. :)

Heaven's Grocery Store.

I was walking down life's highway a long time ago.
One day I saw a sign that read
Heaven's Grocery Store.

As I got a little closer,
the door came open wide,
And when I came to myself,
I was standing inside.

I saw a host of angels;
they were standing everywhere.
And one angel said," My child shop with care."

Everything a Human
needs was in the grocery store.
And all you couldn't carry
you could come back the
next day for more.

First I got some patience,
love was in the same row.
Further down was understanding,
you need that everywhere you go.

I got a box or two of wisdom,
a bag or two of faith.
I just couldn't miss the Holy Ghost
for He was all over the place.

I stopped to get some strength & courage
to help me run the race.
But then my basket was getting full,
but I remembered I needed some grace.

I didn't forget salvation for salvation was free.
So, I tried to get enough of that to save you and me.

Then I started to the counter to pay my grocery bill.
For I thought I had everything to do my Masters will.

As I went up the aisle,
I saw prayer and just had to put that in.
For I knew when I stepped outside,
I would run right into sin.

Peace and joy were plentiful, they were on the last shelf.
Song and praises were hanging near so I just helped myself.

I asked, How much do I owe?
He just smiled and said, just take them everywhere you go.
Then I said, How much do I really owe?
He smiled and said,
My child, God paid your bill along time ago.

"Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know" -Jere 33:3

get away my back, Mr S. you wont have the victory. never.

2006-07-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

"I love you so much that I'd rather you dislike me for telling you the truth than for you to love me for telling you lies." -rev robb thompson.

i like the phrase. :)

2006-07-29T11:33:00.000+08:00

i was quite frustrated last night because of various reasons, mainly because i was so tired and drained and i didnt feel like talking to anyone. and mitchell was there asking me why i was pulling a black face the whole day. rah! nvm, HAHA at least he bothered to ask. hahaha, but still i didnt tell him anything. wahaha.

the pic up there is random. we were trying to pose like _____. =x okay hahaha thats rather bad. but the effect is nice! HAHA and huiyi, rj and i will find this pic hilarious. =x haha.

training was good ytd. i got myself some more blue blacks. and seriously, can eng aep just started earlier!? start so late and im always the last one to turn up for vb. -.- so sickening. hmm. ytd was super tiring. my legs were so sour. nvm, i like. haha. and coach was so funny during debrief. haha seriously, can they just do something to the microphones in the school? its so irritating to have screeching noises during training while they were rehearsing for the idol thing. went for dinner with xy and st. HAHA we stayed there till 9.30pm! seriously too tired to even walk home! =.=

its sat. its the last day of w198. and im stucked at home. this is so screwed.

"why do you have to listen to others, when the truth is just right in front of you?" was what st told me last night. wow huh. :)

im lovin' shayne ward's no promises. :D

tkcare people!

because i want to emerge stronger.

2006-07-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

thanksgiving!

training was goooood on wednesday! had the hall again! :D yep. was tough but it was goood! got myself a bleeding finger and a blue black on my knee. kept sliding in the hall and kept falling down. but nvm, it was still good! :D and my finger is getting better! praise God! :D

normal lessons today. PE was once again super hilarious. screamed and screamed and screamed. haha i finally know the feeling of scoring a goal. haha. hmmm! lessons were dead, everyone was too tired to speak. and so anqi and i had to self-entertain ourselves the whole day. ss test was.. errr. like that. haha. watched finished howl's moving castle during history! i still think the male lead is super handsome! whee! haha. and leefeng went about telling me "eh, which male lead in anime is not handsome." -.- hmmm. had bio extra lesson which consisted of only 5 people. so cool! mrtoh better get well soon! its so hard to hear what he's trying to tell us now. hmmm yup thats it!

had bs with sister faith over the phone just now. was good good! revelations and revelations! :D yep! praise and thank God in whatever you do! :D

God is good, forever wonderful, forever faithful.

move mountains out of my way.

2006-07-25T20:52:00.000+08:00

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life is good. things are getting complicated. all i can say to you is just sorry, and more sorries. please understand.

life has its ups and downs. a bumpy road ahead filled with obstacles. but God will lead the way, if you allow Him to.

all i can testify is that God has been faithful. yes He still is, forever.

keep running.

2006-07-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

separation.

i've just got to know some shocking stuffs. and im still left very speechless.

getting to know w198 was one of my best moments i had in my life. and again, its time to part. w198 has been my closest cg in the church. i wont forget the people, the fellowship, the laughters, the outings, the services, the joy, the ups and the downs. although i've not been spending alot of time with all of you, but i still sense the bond among everyone. that bond, the friendship, something i cant put into words.

w198 has been a part of my life. a big family i will never forget. we'll still be soldiers of Christ shining for God's glory. we will shine like the stars. we will make it, with God.

and if jx is leaving, im really going to cry like crazy.

im thankful to have met w198. the beautiful w198 has been a tremendous blessing from heaven.

2006-07-23T01:17:00.000+08:00

show me how to live.

stayed at home the whole day! mum didnt allow me to go for svc. whateverrrr. had to watch svc online. nvm, its always a joy to receive God's word. :) yep! starting of the 6wks marriage course! was a BRAND new lesson and topic. hmmm! haha i really dont know how to comment on the sermon. nvm. hahaha. :) rev mike conner next week, tgt with one praise&worship guy! festival of praise is coming up!! but the most exciting thing is, its gonna be chc's 17th birthday!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH! so many events coming up! so exciting!! and God please, I PRAY. by faith.

saw this in my senior's blog. "I think facing persecution maybe a good thing. At least you can really feel and fight for God." hmmm yep! then again, its seed, time, and harvest. its all about glorifying God.

"now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen"-Heb 11:1.

its time.

2006-07-22T15:48:00.000+08:00

the answer to all my problems is just staring straight at my face.

2006-07-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

its just another part of my life jigsaw puzzle.

nites.

2006-07-21T20:32:00.000+08:00

believe.

has been a long long long long day. im tired. im hungry. i want to sleep. i've only had 4hours of sleep last night! arggg.

school was funfunfun! reached school at 6.30am and started work at 6.45am. hmmm! haha we dressed rashid, jo and lf up for the racial harmony celebration thing! haha it was hilarious! all of them looked so cute! haha. hmmm. jo was the cutest! hahaha. cause her cheeks were so rosy!!! hmmm! yaye! managed to take a picture with her in her european costume! :D :D :D got third for the inter-class competition! and i love love love love our class's performance! HAHA! :)

school was okay. quite relaxed. haha. and IM SO GLAD ITS THE WEEKENDS.

training was tiring. running and jumping and running and jumping. played match bla bla. my legs are so tired i cant walk now. can someone carry me! haha. okay jk. then again, controlling my temper is something i must master on court. dont wanna elaborate.

oh. after trg went to play basketball with them. haha. tk, xy, agnes, st, daryl, chris and bla bla. haha. i got the ball and i walked with it. hahahahahaha. i didnt know i cant walk with the ball. i never knew, really. hahahaha. and tk kept laughing at me. -.- haha. chris almost had a heart attack when i asked him where was the court. haha it was hilarious! everyone taught me how to throw the ball into the hoop cause i dont know how to shoot, or needless to say, bounce a basketball. nvm, VOLLEYBALL will always be my love! haha.

hmmm. gonna be a super super busy week next week. worse than this week's. gonna have 5 tests in 4 days. arg. nvm, God's grace is sufficient! haha. :D

i think i've been biting people's heads off for weeks. so, im very very sorry if i flared up at you. argggggg. and i just realised i hate people who lie to me. okay, random.

talked to gfmeimei today! haha i love you la girl! haha. finally we get to talk. heart-to-heart matters. and i finally told someone whats really bugging me. then again, life's unfair. then again, pst kong always says its a fallen and broken down world. hmmm. i guess there will either only be one who's chosen, or none. haha i love you laaa gf! haha. and im being reminded of your birthday! go out soooon! :D

and fang! stop feeling so depressed and angered by you-know-whatS. hahaha you will find a more macho guy than sotong aina's drawing! haha. :D you'll definitely find a guy without pink chest! hahahahaha. ok jk. haha. cheer up! [:

life's busy, life is good. things are beginning to change. but its incomplete. i miss church, i miss dearest w198.

PUMP IT!

2006-07-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

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no heading for the day. im too tired to think of any at the moment. i want to SLEEP so badly now 'cos im so tired! hmmm. life has been busy busy!

wed. had spelling test! hmmm. then bla bla bla lessons all the way. haha i like our racial harmony skit! hahaha awww the 3 main leads look so cute! haha. hmmm. yep. then had training. was drizzling and coach didnt want to conduct trg. so we went to the gym. ahhh. haha. and we only stayed there for like 30mins? and we went to the hall to train as it was unoccupied! haha thank God! :D

had bio test today. mmm. then went home to change and met sarah up for pirates! :D :D :D haha. i was laughing and laughing at johnny depp. johnny depp and orlando bloom are sooooo charming!!! hahaha and that elizabeth is so pretty! :D haha was a gd gd gd gd gd movie! haha. walked for awhile then went off to meet huiyi! hahaha did the prop for tmr till 10pm at yt mac. and yep! im back!

loads of super hilarious stuffs has happened. and its too many for me to blog them out! haha. :D life has been fine. and im blessed to have people around me who knows what im thinking. hmmmmm. but then again, there's always a line between casual friends and close friends. nvm, i dont wanna elaborate.

its 11.30pm. and i've got to be out by 6am tmr! im super tired. but i believe God is my Jehova Jireh, He will provide. :)

get well soon!

2006-07-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

the journey.

life has been rather mad. but its still not that bad. YET. hmmmm. its amusing how some things can happen and all. hmmm.

anqi&i went rather crazy today. she was making me laugh like crazy before her band performance. and she laughed so crazily after i told her what happened in the morning. oh, we communicated through the language which only both of us understand during aep. if you happen to hear us, then dont ask us what we're talking about. cause we also dont know what we're speaking. hahahahaha.

hmmm! ok anyway i dreamt of mslee last night. yea yea my tcher. and i dreamt that our school suddenly had this wear-whatever-you-want day thing. and she was dressed in her usual black suit and the most stunning thing was that she had this LAMP on her head. yeah and when she pulled the string, it lights up instantly, ON HER HEAD. hahahaha yeah use your imagination! haha.

oh. bumped into my neighbour today. and we went onto the same lift and the conversation started.

neighbour: morning!
me: hello!
neighbour: so, which secondary school are you aiming to go to?
me: -STARES- huh? im in secondary school.
neighbour: oh. hahaha i always get confused between you and your sister.

yes, and this was what made anqi laughed like crazy. ahhhh there goes my reputation!! haha. its ok. haha i love to make ppl HAPPY! haha but not laugh at me -.- lol.

im slowly forgetting jerk. im gonna be ok. and yf! im deleting his sms one by one slowly. so dont say i still keep his smses! and i realised, reality has suddenly become so important to me now.

its gonna be alright. i love the way life seems to be now.

im sorry to leave you hanging like this.
i have been thinking.
give me a few more days, please.

2006-07-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

BLOGGER ATE UP MY BEAUTIFUL POST. cant be bothered to type them all again. NITES!

2006-07-16T13:31:00.000+08:00

santcuary.

When my world was in darkness
You spoke Your word
Night turned into day
Your beauty filled this place

When my world stood in silence
You filled my heart
With songs that never end
Forever i will praise

To think that the universe
Could not withhold Your glory
You choose to live in me
Im so amazed

(And)I worship you Lord
My life in Your restored
Here is my heart
Make it Your santuary
For nobody else
But Jesus only You.

You are faithful and true
Glorious Lord
all my life, it is You i adore.
You touched my world
Completed my world i surrender to You

beautiful song. tangible presence. with You, im whole again.
i love You, my Lord.

2006-07-16T01:50:00.000+08:00

& i surrender.

service with rev dr che ahn was superb. many were healed. but of course, i cant wait for benny hinn to come back! haha benny hinn is awesome! mmm! but, of course pst kong&pst ulf are still my favourites! :)

sometimes, when you dont see some people for a period of time, you will feel that you are left out and all. nvm, only anna knows what im talking about. :D

well, often, when one problem is solved, another comes. life is weird.

i cant think abt you.
i cant miss you.
i cant dream abt you.
learning how to live a life without you.
its gonna be alright.
i WILL be happy.

2006-07-15T16:53:00.000+08:00

everytime.

its finally the weekends! thank God! i've been so tired, fed up and disappointed this week, mostly. okay rah nvm.

ytd was fun! had eng aep! very very diff from what we normally do! we gave speeches! it was hilarious, totally hilarious. haha esp ky. he made the whole class roar with laughter. it was funfun! then rushed for trg. trg was scary. coach was... the same as last week. s c a r y is the word. mmm.

oh. bio was hilarious ytd. mrtoh was so proud of the heart he drew on his board, he cant afford to erase it. lol and he said i looked fierce ytd. like, wth. ok, so when im tired, i look angry? weird. hmmm.

alot of tests coming up. busy busy busy busy busy busy. oh! i still cant believe i slept for 17hours. arghh.

i cant believe i threw my temper so many times this week. no, i didnt come that thing. -.- my feelings are still like rojak, so mixed up that i got so paranoid this week. so, im sorry if i have biten of any of your heads this week.

sometimes, people shun things/objects/people for a reason. i turn away because i dont want these tears to flow when i see you. ok, i've had enough.

rev robb thompson, "your future is completely dependent upon the quality of people you call friend." :)

service with rev dr che ahn this week. its gonna rock!

&SOH SI YING, I MISS YOU!

2006-07-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

tomorrow will be a better day.

im very very very tired. so tired to the extent kenric told me today, "eh your eye bags are worse today". great.

today has been boring. no anqi! ): was bored bored in school. but nvm, i had to complete alot of work during lessons, which was like rather hard. had to juggle between so many stuffs. oh, had history test. mmm.

oh. went out to study at macs. did the LONG LONG ss mindmap for 4hours can. -.- i have not completed english, my emaths, and my chinese. arghhh.

anyway, had bs. sometimes, things are just not coincidental. they happen for a reason. :D learnt about love. and it made me reflect alot alot. mmm.

im tired. but im excited for tmr. its friday! :D

stop the tears, take away the pain, please.

2006-07-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

im coming back.

training was okay today. just that coach didnt come and felicia took us! :D who says a sec2 cant lead? :D it was good. just that we had to pack up just when just started playing match for like 15mins. boo. now cca ends at 6.30pm. like wth. SO EARLY. 6.30pm means lesser training, which means lesser chances of playing match, which is so sad! ): ): ): ): ):

ok got to study now. i've got a whole chunk of hmk waiting for me to complete by thurs. ALOT of tests coming up. sigh.

off to study for history test now!

pieces of you.

2006-07-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

matt 6:33. :D

2006-07-11T17:19:00.000+08:00

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okay, fang wants me to blog. so yeah, im here.

school has been pretty well okay. new seating arrangement. and i and jo are separated! boo! but nvm, i still have anqi! yay. oh. plus i saw w198 backs during sat svc on the com! and i saw sister faith! double hurrays!

anyway, im beginning to fall in love with the rain.

happy 16th birthday.

2006-07-09T16:58:00.000+08:00

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rev robb thompson was superb. :D lots of notes to copy last evening. haha. :) and he's really gd with playing with words. :D and he said something which is like, wow. "sorry is not a man says when he has hurt you." mmmm, inspirational? hmm. we learnt about the types of friends in our lives. wonderful sermon. :D

i like this phrase, "life is like a masquerade." got this from a blog, "a mask; somewhere we'll be able to hide, somewhere safe. safe from all that we dont have to face."

i feel like getting out of my house now and run in the rain. to run away from this misery. hoping that the rain will take away the pain and the hurt. at least i'll feel better. but, i cant.

things change as time goes by. friends change. relationships change. life changes. i change.

random post. bye.

silence; its beautiful.

2006-07-08T13:21:00.000+08:00

the sound of revival.

this wk was rather short. but loads happened. more than what i can imagine. well, some things are better left unsaid.

tuesday.. cant remember. all i remembered was we had to cut pics out from mags during ce lesson. fun fun! :D wed, had training. coach was s c a r y. yes. scary. rather shocking. tsk. thurs.. had bio aep! haha. was hilarious!

mrTOH:"i bought an italy wc shirt! i've been supporting italy since i was 12!"
cheryl:"from pasar malam ah!"
mrTOH:"pasar malam your head! from world of sports alright! $90 ok!!!"
class:"woahhhhhhh"

mrTOH:"sorry, these few days, my throat is feeling weird"
me:"mrtoh, you break voice ah?"
mrTOH:"HUH!! what break voice!!! nooo!!! im 28 yrs old already! no la! i think is sore throat."

hmm. ytd was cool. had lessons till 12 only. went home to bathe and all then met sarahHO and we headed down to marina sq! :D yaye! we walked alot alot. and i finally walked the whole of marina sq! lunched at jack's place. mmm! student meal of course. oh, and i just found out that my denim cardigen at SKIN is GONE! ): SIAN-ED. its too nice already, thats why its gone. bought a brown esprit top! yay i like it! plus a denim cardigen at zara! :D and now im afraid of shopping, and seriously broke. no more shopping for this month.

its amusing to know how God opens another door for you when one closes. :D anyway, thank my dad for all these blessings! ultimately, i wanna shout out to GOD! yes! its HE who provided me with all these blessings. glory unto Him. amen! :D

oh. we had fried bars bars for dinner! its sooooo nice! but yet so sinful! argh. haha. its sooo gd! you all shld try it! :D plus we had fried calamaries! and this reminds me that i have to start exercising. arghhhh.

hmm. cant go to church today. ): ): its rev robb thompson! ahhh!! :D

and these few days while walking back alone, i've been thinking abt alot of things. truly, like what pst tan has said last week, a man without a vision is a man without a future. hmmm.

anyway, so much has taken place. i thank God i have friends like all of you whenever i needed someone to listen to me, whenever i needed help. you know who you all are. love all of you! :D

sometimes, knowing too much kills. but then again, it doesnt feel gd if you dont know anything at all. my heart has been torn into pieces. but i'm already used to the numbness abt you.

"everything is going to be fine."

is it time i stop deceiving myself?

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I'm not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love ~~is not~~ was blind.

2006-07-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

i cant pretend nothing has ever happened. then again, actions speak louder than words. if she means nothing to you, then what abt me? remember the times? i bet you didnt.

silence. its golden.

2006-07-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

what does it feel like to be stabbed straight in the heart? yes, it hurts.

reality really hurts.

silence is golden. im going to be ok. i think.